Wednesday 17 July 2019

This Is My Home, The Place Where I'm Lonely

A photo of Swede Towers taken in the late 1800s

It's been a long stretch - two six day working weeks followed by a seven day one. Keeping mind and body busy is definitely a good thing for me at the moment and the exhaustion guarantees I get at least a few hours sleep each night. It's the coming home from work that's the difficult part though. The house is quiet and empty and the person I want be in it with is no longer here. I'm trying not to rush into anything, but I need to decide what my next move, if any, is going to be. Do I stay in a house that I love, is bought and paid for, but is full of memories and too big for my needs, or sell-up, downsize and take a chance somewhere else?

Husky Rescue - My Home Ghost

10 comments:

Alyson said...

What a lovely shot of your house. It's a tough one isn't it and in the meantime probably best not to rush into anything, but just my thoughts.

I was contacted yesterday by a long lost cousin in Australia who was looking for pictures of our grandparents for a family tree they are putting together for their son's 40th. I have a similar picture (in terms of date) of their house and am rifling through old photos at the moment looking for more - Right up your street!

Sounds like you've been working hard of late but being physically exhausted certainly helps with sleep. Thinking of you.

The Swede said...

Hi Alyson. Thanks for your thoughts and kind words. The consensus from my friends and family is also not to rush into any decision and sitting in the garden with a coffee on a sunny morning, that's how I feel too. The evenings are really hard though and I'm worried about how much harder they'll eventually be in the colder, darker months to come.

Charity Chic said...

As Alyson said don't do anything too hasty given that your emotions are still very raw.
Cracking photo.
our house dates back to the 20's. It din't dawn on me until I typed the last sentence that it is coming up for 100 years of age!

C said...

Such a brilliant photo... I love the thought of all the people our old houses have 'known' over the years and all the stories that they'll never be able to reveal. Who is that lady in the pic?
I have the same thoughts as Alyson here too. I would be inclined not to make any major decisions to change anything else just now, especially when moving house is such an upheaval and brings its own stresses. My feeling is.. just bide your time for a bit. I always think our homes (well, the ones we love, not the crappy old bedsits and dodgy flats we've subjected ourselves to in the past!) can feel like old friends and provide their own unique form of comfort. Here we are in Summer with all the joys that nature brings to our gardens, keep watching the birds and maybe throw yourself into growing things as part of the healing process...maybe even consider taking in a lodger in the future if the house feels too big? "The future is unwritten"!

Thinking of you too - and glad you're getting the sleep you need. Take care of yourself.

Brian said...

Hi Swede. That photo and your place is so special. I feel like you're getting wise words from your pals here. Take some time. Your abode is a big decision, and you don't want any regrets. This is the time to get the camera out and throw yourself into snapping all of those interesting birds that seem to love your residence. Blog when you feel like you can too. It's always such a pleasure to stop by your place. You're in our thoughts.

Rol said...

No easy answers, and I'm certainly not one to offer advice. I can barely keep my own shoelaces tied. I'll keep sending good vibes your way though, Swede.

The Swede said...

Sincere thanks for the supportive words guys. Please forgive me if I occasionally use this place to think out loud - I'll try not to make a habit of it. This morning I sat in the garden with my first coffee of the day as the bees buzzed around me and the swifts screamed overhead - my spirits were lifted immensely.

Swiss Adam said...

As everyone else has said, don't rush into anything, let things take their course over the summer at least. This too shall pass as World of Twist said.

John Medd said...

When the time comes you'll know what to do. Until then, sit tight and enjoy the Summer.

Walter said...

I only can agree to the words that have been said. Take your time for your decision. And don't worry about your words at this place. We are with you Swede

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